A LOVE STORY FOR SELF AND OTHERS
Written by anonymous pebbles. A community collaboration.
And Surfing Panda
CONTACT AlicesEros@gmail.com
Hello Alice,
This is “Panda”
Thank you for your kind responses to my past email.
Bad News... or Good news... as i will experience it.... Looks like my business deal is not going to come into being.
Alice.. I fantasized about what I would do with all that money.. when I become a multi millionaire.
I spent the money on a list of trips, cars, boats, and mansions. All in an attempt...to feel less lonely.
Lonely, is how I feel.
I just want those moments when a loved one holds you.
Someone who Holds me through ecstasy...through the pain.
My fantasy...
use my wealth to heal..
to understand...
to learn to connect on an intimate level..
to find that ecstasy that is created when two become one.
These fantasies are but a life preserver..
As I bobble in the currents and waves..
This con of money.
Gave me hope.
During the ecstasy and the pain.
A false hope indeed.
As I discover land once again.
As I discover true wealth
As I discover I can swim again.
I write to Alice Little my fantasy.
I hope to heal the universal wounds
of a lifetime of ignorance.
A way to understand myself.
Not so easy in the 70’s..
Now..
thank you YouTube.
Thank you for the personal stories.
Thank you for “Coffee with Alice Little”.
Why I write to Alice.
No Money No Honey.
How do I achieve time in wonderland?
Fantasy, I want to write about the everyday experience of roleplaying in developing and sustaining a healthy intimate safe vulnerable experience. To get enough money to spend two years just writing about my personal experiences in wonderland.
Instead change of plans
I want to start an interactive story telling with the public. Reading their stories of roleplaying.
I am an OG. :-) I went to craigslist and backboards to visit the personal ads. Men seeking women etc. I found them closed.
Alice Little, where do I go to put into action my plan ??
The following is ladies choice.
To just respond and ask for more.
To read on
Or stop
I have moments of inspiration and I can't stop writing. The following is a more indepth view of my mind and goals. I hope you read further and find the inspiration to reply.
“STOP Panda”
Chapter 2
Ladies choice
I have moments of inspiration and I can't stop writing.
I want to send more
but i will stop and ask if you are interested
I have a more indepth view of my mind and goals.
If interested in reading more please let me know.
Lovingly submitted
Panda
Hello Alice I would like to introduce you to Panda and Ying wun
I am on the right.
Hello Alice Little contributors,
I have a story line idea to get things moving. PLEASE JUMP IN WITH STORY IDEAS
We are following the rolling story of
Panda: The over sensual panda.
Panda has come out of hibernation
is reevaluating his life and goals.
Pandas story is of a modern man and
the in depth review of modern man.
A mirror.
A ink blot.
A projection of a greater group consciousness on to our pages here at HelloAliceLittle
PANDA ENTERS CENTER STAGE - The Musical scene is one very rough draft.
This is Interactive. Please open YouTube video
PINK FLOYD - WEARING THE INSIDE OUT
Panda sings
From morning to night I stayed out of sight
Didn't recognize I'd become
No more than alive I'd barely survive
In a word...overrun
Won't hear a sound
From my mouth
I've spent too long
On the inside out
My skin is cold
To the human touch
This bleeding heart's
Not beating much
I murmured a vow of silence and now
I don't even hear when I think aloud
Extinguished by light I turn on the night
Wear it's darkness with an empty smile
I'm creeping back to life
My nervous system all awry
I'm wearing the inside out
Look at him now
He's paler somehow
But he's coming round
He's starting to choke
It's been so long since he spoke
Well he can have the words right from my mouth
And with these words I can see
Clear through the clouds that covered me
Just give it time then speak my name
Now we can hear ourselves again
I'm holding out
For the day
When all the clouds
Have blown away
I'm with you now
Can speak your name
Now we can hear
Ourselves again
PANDA PICKS UP THE PHONE AND DIALS
Telephone Ringing sound Effect https://youtu.be/NK92DUyyngc sound overlaps pink by 30 seconds then continues to ring a long time.
Call is answered play https://youtu.be/zjABiLYrKKE
HANGS UP. CALLS SON WHO RUSHES TO GET ME TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM
Mellow Yellow plays as scene shifts to the emergency room.
Mellow yellow by donovan https://youtu.be/74nJCrDtqWU
SPECIAL NOTE : ELECTRIC BANANA need i say more?
Center stage spotlight. Panda in a dissociative episode is on the floor in considerable distress as he is coddled in the lap of his step-mom and close by is his son and father.
Second SpotLight comes up revealing Panda on stage left. He is dancing, snapping his fingers happily singing as Alice Little dressed as the mad hatter and Tiara Tae naughty professor dance alongside him.
ADD IN WEBSITES photos
Alice Little
Tiara Tae
Third spotlight on stage right reveals the front desk of an emergency room. Slowly a group of six security guards gathers in front.
I look at them.
I am in a dissociative episode.
I am semi aware of the reality around me.
I see the security guards getting ready to take me down with any force necessary.
In retrospect... How grateful I am that my dissociative episode was not spiced with a sense of paranoia and I was not in public for very long before Andrew got to me.
Although my physical body was
in considerable stress,
Kicking and thrashing.
My mind was dancing with Alice and Tiara.
As I yell
“I am Mellow Yellow. “
“Everything is alright.”
“My mind is being reprogrammed.”
I looked over at the officers.
With all the strength I could muster.
I slowly crawled towards the security guards and laid on my back.
My arms stretched to form the image of the cross.
As the security guards surround me
They take their positions
i am filled with fear and unable to escape
As the 12 hands reach out to hold me down.
What little control I had left is now gone.
I let go in the comfort of the 12 hands.
Those hands were not holding me down
a safety measure to keep me from hurting myself or others.
This created a sense of safety…
permission to let go
I would be safe.
As the pain from their hands on me grew
I let my mind go to ecstasy
I let my body go to pain
To a manic ecstasy
a connection between ecstasy and pain
Is revealed.
two days later bruises covered my body.
My loneliness in part a grieving?...a pain in my soul? ...a loss...a loss of self? My true potential?my voice?,,,
END SCENE 1
EMAIL FROM ALICE
Good afternoon Panda
It is great to hear from you again, thank you for writing to me. I am sorry to hear that your latest business endeavor did not work out exactly as planned.
We should set up a virtual date to learn more about each other. What do you say?
PANDA EMAIL
My first reaction,
with a smile
the idea of video
scares me.
I ve been ill a long long time
Slowly building a wall of protection
I live with Bipolar 1
showing you my face my eyes
seeing your face your eyes
goes against my social anxiety
This is my attempt to break the cycle
Say yes.
So yes it is.
I prefer the ability of the written word to edit out most of my gibberish to hide the fact
I am a unique personality
in search of his voice.
I don't want to reveal how truly terrified i feel.
In 2018 I went through a dissociative episode that lasted a year.
I broke into a million pieces.
Slowly healing
Creating a mosaic from the pieces
I write to heal
I reached out to you by email.
its 2020
Time to go video
So Alice, yes. Yes to the video. I will...to the best of my abilities
Please send information
"DON'T DREAM IT....BE IT"
Panda
Email alice
That's fine if you're worried about having a face to face virtual date.
We can always set up a phone chat or maybe some texting, how do you feel about that?
Warmly,
Alice
"A phone chat would be great. "
with a smile on my face
my stomach does flips
"Next week would be best for me"
with a smile on my face
my stomach does flips
"Please pick date and time that works for you"
Cordially
Panda
Email Alice Little
Good afternoon Panda
I am Sunday afternoon. How does 1pmPST sound?
My rates for phone calls are $150/15 minutes. How long would you like to chat for?
Warmly,
Alice
Dear Lady Alice,
It is with a heavy heart that I will have to postpone our phone date.
I started the email to update you on my change of status from a good possibility of developing a two year journey at the bunnyranch and write my book into a holding pattern but a no at this time.
I ran my own business. I fully relate to the hard work it takes to bring in new clients. Then add in the abuse from social media i
I should have stopped there but I am in a hypomanic episode and I blurred normal human boundaries and jumped over it a little,
And kept on writing
then I crossed the line.
While I am excited to talk with you, the fact is that I have lost my business and much more. the good news i am on the attack. I will improve and heal and regain my prosperity. But I should not have given you the impression that I would be financially able to complete my goal and call you.
My Hypomania has led me to some exciting adventures and fantasies, I feel euphoric. But I usually scare people away or hurt them emotionally with my unexpected emotional rollercoaster.
I can not in good conscience put a loved one through this rollercoaster. So I stay away from getting close to others.
I thought with you and the other ladies I could spread the burden from one girlfriend experience to three girlfriends experiences with other special guest stars.. This would also help me
to try and see if it is possible that I could have a long term relationship with someone who can empathize with the special powers .
Now I better understand what it means to live with and move forward and grow personally and financially while living with BiPolar 1 , PTSD and dissociative episodes
So I am on a holding pattern before I can call you.
FOR NOW I thought that I would go onto the personal ads and see if I could become pen pals with men and women. Topic :roleplaying and the effects emotionally it has on their personal, psychological and sexual healthy growth. I think that this idea is worth exploring. There is the possibility that it leads me to a podcast. patreon, blog, book, musical and movie. Turning it into money to support my visit with You and the bunnyranch and write another book about my experience, and the special qualities of the ladies at the bunny ranch.
I shall say bye for now. I will continue the struggle and visit with you as soon as possible and to the best of my ability..
Thank you for your kindness and patience.
Panda
CHAPTER 3
BLOG IDEA IS DEVELOPED
Hi Panda
It was nice chatting with you today. Attached is our employment application. Please complete and send back to me at your earliest convenience. We are also confirmed for Thursday at 11am.
EXPLAIN SITUATION
Thank You Josh for our meeting last thursday. and I look forward to working with the team.
I need to ask for a little time between making a final decision on option one or option two.
I need to confirm some numbers with my disability lawyer.
I should have information by my training day on thursday.
Good news. I also double checked my Health care status with the extra income...I had assumed the wrong totals before I spoke, ...turns out I can bring in significantly more $ than I thought before paying out of pocket. So far it looks like the number one option might be best for me.
I will email you soon
Thanks
Dear Josh,
Thank you for your time and caring assistance.
I am aware that this is not your normal mode of operation, but a special request from Mrs. Jeffries.
Josh, I need some help.
I live with Bipolar 1
While living with Bipolar 1, I ran my own small cleaning business, raised my son and managed Jeffries’ apartments for the past 15 years.
In 2018 I had a serious episode that resulted in a psychotic break from reality. This left me barely able to take care of myself. Thank God for family and friends, I am now on the road to recovery.
Consequently, I had to give up my business due to my disability. There are helpful government programs but I need to be within financial guidelines. For example, medical, food stamps, cash aid and Social Security Disability.
I have a special request.
Option 1: rent $1000 payroll $1300
and
Option 2 rent $1,000 payroll $720
do not fit with the government guidelines for SSI Disability.
I am only allowed $1,020 income per month to qualify for aid. Above that, they take away my disability. I would appreciate it, if you would consider a third option that would be a perfect fit. It allows me some extra cash and still fits into the government guidelines.
Option 3: rent $800 monthly and income of $1,000 monthly.
I’m aware that moving from Option 2 to 3 does not seem much, but when you live on $50 per week for food, it’s a lot. Option 1 eliminates all possible state or federal assistance with my disability.
Thank you so much for your consideration and willingness to work with me.
I feel that Option 3 would be a better fit, if this is agreeable to you.
I will See your team on thursday, 1 pm to 5pm training
Thank you
OVERVIEW OF BLOG PROPOSAL
A call out to the public.
During this time of a public health emergency, economic downturn, unemployment, under employment, racial injustice, policing reforms, mostly peaceful rallies,and the deep political divisional political atmosphere.
A divide.
We have a need to come together and heal.
We all have our unique abilities and quirks on how to deal with stress. I find sexual relationship fantasies a great way to take me away from my stress and problems I have no control over.
I am starting a blog page.
Hello Alice Little
A community. A collaboration.
Dedicated to exploring EROTIC ROLEPLAYING AND STORY TELLING.
An adult website themed blog.
What are the benefits of erotic imagination for your physically, psychological, and sexual well being. We will have special guests.
We will go oldschool and use the written word to first arouse our imagination. We will publish stories, interactive collaborations, poems, sexual topics of the day, music, food, mental health, physical health, the kamasutra etc….
Today it is more important than ever to pay special attention to self care. To take care of ourselves and our partners physical, psychological, spirituality, and sexual well being.
MY BLOG IS “ Alices Eros Playground”
Please reach out to me at AlicesEros@gmail.com
Introduce yourself. Tell me what ideas drew you to respond. How would you like to contribute? A story, a poem, special interest, strengths and weaknesses. you get the idea.
My inspiration https://youtu.be/eYLGILXwYeE
Everything You Want to Know About Role Play - Coffee With Alice Little
SCENE TWO PANDA THE MUSICAL
Hello Alice little contributors,
I have a story-line idea to get things moving.
PLEASE CONTRIBUTE TO STORY
We are following the rolling story of
Panda: The over-sensual panda.
Panda has come out of hibernation
is reevaluating his life and goals.
Sex is on Pandas mind
It is all he thinks about.
It has been 12 years since his last intimate encounter with ying wun.
Panda only spoke English.
Ying wun chinese. And a natural tendency towards a low abido.
What is Panda to do.
Then bam
Quarantine.
Panda goes online
In a manic hyper sexual ecstasy
Panda has his eureka moment.
PORN SAVES THE UNIVERSE
I boil it down to
The revelation of to How sexual fantasies saved my life.
I search youtube: ROLEPLAYING SEX
I arrived at coffee with alice
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Everything You Want to Know About Role Play - Coffee With Alice Little
Mating season is slowly approaching.
Panda decides to set off an adventure to visit Madame Alice little. Rumors say she is a powerful cortisone. GIVE DESCRIPTION AND PICTURES. To learn from the great one with the goal of expanding his ability to arouse his partner.
Chapter 1 community PLEASE CONTINUE STORY
Panda is all talk no sex at this time.
We will come to that climax together.
Email Alice Little
Good afternoon Panda,
I am so sorry to hear that, I was very much looking forward to speaking with you over the phone.
Please let me know as soon as things take a fortunate turn and we can start planning!
Hopefully not too long and I also am sending positive vibes for you to find what you are looking for!
All the best,
Alice
Panda’s background continued
Wonderland I love
Alice Little Dressed As the mad hatter sings as Panda is strapped down and given a sedative shot in the butt
Tiara Tae Dressed as naughty professor Sings to the audience and Alice Little
Fallen - Gert Taberner
CHAPTER 4
Panda puts plan into action
Re-visualizing My Disability
September 26 2020 Re-visualizing My Disability By Surfing Panda Time to throw out the roller coaster theme of life. Change to the Surfing Panda I surf the inconsistent waves of emotions From Major Depression Mania Anything in between I’m thrown off the board a lot. I paddle out again Catch the next wave Over and over again Sentenced to never touch land I forgot how to walk Unable to relate. Seeing passerby's Run and be free I am looking for a fellow surfer who can walk also. I fell off my board Struck my head against a Coral reef named “Psychotic Break” Had a vision I CAN WALK I can walk Learn to run Learn to be FREE TO BE ME Don’t Dream It...Be it. I found my fellow surfer
My Mad Hatter
A miracle wish
I put my message in a bottle and toss it into the sea
MY Aubrey will discover my story and respond
Safely i write personal classified looking for pen pals
I start a blog page
Just to be closer to her than me
Aubry by bread.
https://youtu.be/9IWxocGm21U